Dreaming of Fate . . .

Why is it that sometimes things just don't work out? No amount of planning, preparing, or anticipation can change what fate has in store?
Do I really believe in fate? Not really, no. I think life is all about choices you make and the simplest thing can alter your course. At the same time I feel like the Fates must be messing with me because no matter what I do, regarding him, nothing seems to work out.
Yes I lied to you all when I said I was over him. For that I apologize. At the same time I have not been speaking to him as much, as I promised Bobby, so I've been thinking of him less. Even so, when I see him I can't help but smile and be very happy.
On that stupid note, this is why Fate is messing with me: Julia's Christmas party! I've been looking forward to this for over a month. My car broke, my parents car isn't working, I have no way up there. . . oh wait! I do! I can ask him on a date! I'll take him out for Japanese, his favorite, pay for gas, and he can drive. It's perfect!
A simple text: "You staying in town this weekend?". His response ruins everything. . . as usual. "No. I'm going home Friday after school to help my mom."
He's sweet like that :)
But my plans go up in smoke.
The next tactic! Since I can't take him on a date I'll hang out with him. International Movie Night at the College. They were showing Tora-San, a Japanese Comedy.
I ask him, he comes, we sit in the auditorium only to be told the sound isn't working and the movie won't be showing. So after 15 minutes we part ways. I go do homework and he goes home.
Hmmm . . . well that sucks.
So in the space of one week the Fates refuse me my wish of spending time with him. All my planning, preparing, and anticipating ended up being for nothing, as usual when it comes to this kid.
Perhaps I should give up? Is what you're all thinking at this point, right? IT SHALL NOT BE! Taleah Elizabeth Cox NEVER gives up! You can't change how you feel. Will I hope it goes away on it's own accord and leaves me the hell alone though? Yes I will.
And, knowing the Fates, I will get over him, move on, then, and only THEN, will he start to like ME.
Oh cruel Fates. You make a romantic comedy of my life which is not at all entertaining. Frankly it's a Box Office let down in my opinion. But I posted this for everyone else's amusement. Maybe you like the show more than me. Popcorn anyone?